Harmony, in life and in song.

I believe it was the Chinese that spoke of Chi or harmony in one's life. That for one's existence to be balanced and happy one has to be in harmony inside themselves as well as with their world.
I totally agree that harmony is only achieved when we look deep inside ourselves and tune the parts that only we can see.

Sometimes those parts deep inside become too painful to see, based on old hurts. These hurts caused by abuses, [intended or not] coming from words, deeds or even attitudes of others. Sometimes it is those put downs we hear, that cause or add to lack of self esteem. These are but a few examples of those inner places that can cause discord in our lives.

I guess it's obvious that I have an affinity for music. To put it mildly, music has long been my passion. It is the one thing that during my growing up years that I got any little bit of positive feed back from. Now I always loved reading and eating and sleeping. Those things all became the ways I escaped from the things that hurt me.

I was never taught coping skills and as more and more hurts piled up in my young life I retreated more and more. I often found myself feeling totally alone even in a group of friends not that I was popular or sought after. I never dated really and I lived in the middle of nowhere so even just hanging out with people my own age was not easy. I ended up being more and more isolated.
As I continue this blog, I'll go more and more into the changes that I've had to make in my life.