Learning My Harmony

A.N. This was posted as a response to another blog today but fits all too well here, so I include it.

As you know, there are mountains in our lives that sometimes overwhelm and bury us. It can be mountains of Pain from abuse, the self imposed [albeit unknowingly at first]prison of guilt or doubts about yourself. Sometimes that prison can hold us for years. It takes a time of becoming angry with your life and determining to make the changes, beginning inside ourselves first.

I was in that pit of doubt and despair for far too many years, imprisoned in a life that was unbearable. I'd made bad choices and lived shackled with depression and guilt coupled with negative self esteem from earlier abuse and programming. That gorge I found myself in nearly became my grave.
I have had to battle in the last few years to undo those old chains that bound me. I've learned to love myself and yes it's still an ongoing process. I learned to even begin to "Proclaim my mighty Yawp."

The last year has been the best of my life because I not only grew and climbed farther out of that pit I'd been in most of my life, but I also discovered joy that I'd never dreamed of.
This joy began as unconditional love and acceptance from someone else and taught me to see those things inside myself I'd never seen, or felt was wrong of me to notice. Yes that's how bad I was programmed. To brag on myself at all was considered a negative thing in the past.

Today I have a brighter future a much more positive outlook and I've become a much stronger happier me. I owe a lot of the credit for that progress to my dear Ed and the teaching he has done as well as the wonderful love and acceptance he gives. True I'd begun the journey before being reunited with him, but his insight helped me grow so much.

For his positive attitude and teaching me to appreciate and proclaim who I am, I thank him from the very bottom of my heart.

I dedicate this post and my blog to my sweetheart, Ed.